Mist...

Losing a dear friend, leaves a hollowed space in the heart…

 It will lead to a loss so profound, you tend to overanalyze things and become self-absorbed. You shut yourself out as your sense of reason gets blurred. And as you entertain the whys and the what ifs, you allow that void to be filled with emotions other than kindness and empathy. Over time, hearts become indifferent as paths diverge.

Preserving a friendship entails knowing its limits…

One can never shove failures and expectations to a friend for as you push yourself ever closer, it strains the bond. When you should have stood shoulder to shoulder, never letting each others’ load  pull the other down, instead lift each other up, to lend a helping hand.

Life is too short, to harbor any kind of offence…

 It takes a whole lot of courage to accept a mistake, to discover a folly shadowing a regret. Though things can be mended, a bleeding heart loses its warmth and a friendship strained can never go back to what it once was. 

 I have lived with it, for I have hurt two of my greatest friends. And if it weren't for that folly, I would have been the best man on their wedding and a godfather to their son. To this very day, I carry with me the whys and the what ifs of that friendship now shrouded in mist…

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