Old self...

I'm taking time to find where I belong
For all these years I think I've lost my heart
I must have left it without me knowing
At an unpeculiar place, I've lost track with

I must go back to that place and time
Scouring through my memories, I can't tell
Why have I thoughtlessly left my old self
For now I think I am living half empty

As I keep on reaching far out to my past
Along the way I see my bits and pieces
I pick it up, its essence flow inside me
I am still in a daze, I cannot understand

Going back, I don't know where to start
Too much memories, suppressed emotions
Built in layers on top of a vulnerable heart
I must take it back, and be my whole self... 

 Once more...






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