love and alcohol



I gulped four shots of whiskey and after having done so; I just couldn’t help but let out that huge gasp. Jason told me that I do catch on fast then asked me if I’m still ok. I did tell him that I am still quite ok, but that I could lose it any minute. He told me that the difference between people and alcohol is that we can throw up a bottle of beer but, it’s not the same case with people. I looked at his eyes, and I could sense the sadness he is trying to hide from his façade. I told him that indeed, we can just take a pill for a hangover, but it is not the same case for heartache. Anyhow, I do need to take control of my drinking, a dilemma I have been struggling since I could not take even a single shot. I easily get drunk. And so I turned to him to teach me the ways of drinking alcohol without losing sanity quickly.

Well, at the back of my mind, there is no other way I could get close to him so I resorted to this unconventional method. I have always liked Jason since the first time I met him. On a snowy day, I saw him at the back alley tending a kitten left in a box. His smile that day as he held the kitten in front of his face was something that stirred my heart. If only I’m that cute kitten, to stare into his dreamy eyes asking him for a chance to take me home to his place. I chuckled then perhaps he wouldn’t become miserable as he is right now.

I still managed to take one shot but I think I am nearing my limit. Jason asked me to sing a song and that could help me keep up. No wonder, I thought. So this is how people at my place manage to sing the whole night while on a drinking binge.

I could not think of any other song so I just made up my own.And there he was, he just sitting there with a grimace to his face. Having lost all sense of timidity, I stood up and made my way near him. I started to sway my hips and do some ridiculous movements on my hands. I must have been drunk. I can’t help it. I need to see him smile again. I did not realize that he was filming me the entire time with his phone.

When I received the video file he sent me the next day, I just can’t hide my mortification at what I’ve seen. He probably must not like me anymore. I’m so shameless. The only consolation I had with that experience was that I was able to catch a glimpse again of his cute smile which has taken my heart.

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