Profound Thoughts

Starry, starry night Paint your palette blue and gray Look out on a summer's day With eyes that know the darkness in my soul Shadows on the hills Sketch the trees and the daffodils Catch the breeze and the winter chills In colors on the snowy linen land Now, I understand, what you tried to say to me And how you suffered for your sanity And how you tried to set them free They would not listen, they did not know how Perhaps they'll listen now Starry, starry night Flaming flowers that brightly blaze Swirling clouds in violet haze Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue Colors changing hue Morning fields of amber grain Weathered faces lined in pain Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand Now, I understand, what you tried to say to me And how you suffered for your sanity And how you tried to set them free They would not listen, they did not know how Perhaps they'll listen now For they could not love you But still your love was true And when no hope was left inside...

sometimes it is hard to know which path you are supposed to take... but deep inside, you know that if you follow your heart you can't be wrong... Sometimes it is hard to see your destiny... but if you follow the path to righteousness, you know you are on the right way... If you fall along the way, have faith... you will pull it through... if you are lost and all alone, you will definitely find the courage and strength... keep on going your way...

imprinted on my mind is an image of your face i cannot simply let go for it has stirred something  within my soul your tender glance has spoken to me  with a thousand words beyond my understanding let me feel your heart i want to hear what it says let me fill it with my love my future, my all

The first story is about connecting the dots... I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another  18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out? It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relent...

I have been alone for the longest part of my life... Looking back I can say that it was more like the passing of one torch from one generation to the next. That in this world, one must learn to live by himself to prepare for any eventuality that will come to his life in his latter years. Knowing that no matter how much you want things to stay the same way they are, it can never be. You have to move and make something out of your life... undertakings you truly like which will define the life that you will be leading... That no matter how much you want to suppress the future, it is simply out of your control. Unless you want the future to take you to uncertainty, you have to do something for yourself, for the people you care... so that the future can be envisioned... you can be one step further in controlling your life...  For life is all about moving on and not staying put...sometimes you need to be alone so that you can define your future and the future of the ...

Why does my heart seem to be in tears? It must be the feeling that the world has already seemed to pass me by. Where most of the people I know already started to establish themselves, making families of their own, seeing the eyes of their offspring... a definite future looking back towards them... While here I am, still trying to make more of my life... still creating dreams... hoping these turn into a reality.... How many dreams must one have then say with finality... that it is time to stop dreaming... to simply take whatever reality has provided him... When in fact, the life that I'm leading is one of the future I had set in mind several lifetimes ago...

When you're close to tears remember Someday it'll all be over One day we're gonna get so high Though it's darker than December What's ahead is a different color One day we're gonna get so high And at the end of the day remember the days When we were close to the edge And wonder how we made it through the night The end of the day remember the way We stayed so close till the end We'll remember it was me and you 'Cause we are gonna be Forever you and me You will always keep it flying high In the sky of love Don't you think it's time you started Doing what we always wanted One day we're gonna get so high 'Cause even the impossible Is easy when we got each other One day we're gonna get so high And at the end of the day remember the days When we were close to the end And wonder how we made it through the night The end of the day remember the way We stayed so close till the end We'll remember it was me and you 'Cause we are gonna b...

Wherever we go, in whatever things we do. We always yearn for acceptance...  from an illustrious victory to the commiseration of a defeat on the road towards a battle to a journey to the unknown from an anonymous deed to a promising endeavor The list may go on and on., We want to hear praises, well wishes and soothing guidance. It is seldom that we seek to be admonished, punished and be criticized.  For acceptance leads to the affirmation of our beliefs, our virtues... our humanity.... But there is a thin line which delineates acceptance and our penchant for fame and egoistic tendencies...It all boils down to our authenticity... our character... Acceptance has to come from within. It is something personal. Because once you have gained full acceptance of yourself, you no longer care how the world looks at you or judges you... For acceptance is a salutation from the inner self to the self that faces the world who wishes to be acknowledged for the genuine...

In the morning of my life I shall look to the sunrise. At a moment in my life when the world is new. And the blessing I shall ask is that God will grant me, To be brave and strong and true, And to fill the world with love my whole life through. In the noontime of my life I shall look to the sunshine, At a moment in my life when the sky is blue. And the blessing I shall ask shall remain unchanging. To be brave and strong and true, And to fill the world with love my whole life through In the evening of my life I shall look to the sunset, At a moment in my life when the night is due. And the question I shall ask only I can answer. Was I brave and strong and true? Did I fill the world with love my whole life through? ~ Leslie Bricusse

Since I started asking myself if I was making sense of my days, countless thoughts already came pouring out of my head... It was very difficult to focus my faculties on my plans, on my work, on my relationships and on myself. Now m y mind has become more calm. There were skirmishes and rantings somewhere in between, but I am now sober and optimistic...   As each thread of sentient understanding left me, the perplexities and woes diminished bit by bit, withdrawing themselves in minute strides. Even though new apprehensions surface, much to my chagrin. Those that had left me had gone, farther away from the clutches of my mind. Efficiency has gone up... Plans had been set into play... Life has started to fall into its proper place...

The crystal clear aquamarine waters are inviting me to immerse in its depths... The water that is being fed by the numerous brooks and springs that cascade down from the mountain cordilleras fascinate any onlooker to plunge in its watery domains, to leave any countenance of reality, to strip bare and indulge with nature's grace... As I bathed in its realm, I shuddered at first owing to the cold reception it has accorded me. It feels like it is almost freezing. But I tried to persist to enjoy its refreshing hold, enlivening all my senses as my body began to keep up with the milieu. As I become more attuned, I find myself waking up to new, yet innocent sensations, as my weary self has been brought back to life.  Without a care, I took some gulps of this flavorless ambrosia. For in its purity, this must what heaven tastes like... Having made its way down from the mountains, passing through rocks and foliage... to be filtered along its way. It is closest to the...

Standing in front of a rising sun in contemplation of the impossible and alluring distance which stretches out toward the end of the horizon,  which is gradually being bathed in ascending waves of heat and refraction turning the landscape into a golden sight, the horizon's edge appearing like a border of heaven... It is magnificence in its natural splendor, a sight one must witness before he begins to commence his new day...

I want somebody to share, share the rest of my life Share my innermost thoughts, know my intimate details Someone who'll stand by my side and give me support And in return she'll get my support She will listen to me when I want to speak About the world we live in and life in general Though my views may be wrong, they may even be perverted She'll hear me out, and won't easily be converted To my way of thinking in fact she'll often disagree But at the end of it all she will understand me I want somebody who cares for me passionately With every thought and with every breath Someone who'll help me see things in a different light All the things I detest I will almost like I don't want to be tied to anyone's strings I'm carefully trying to steer clear of those things But when I'm asleep I want somebody Who will put their arms around me, kiss me tenderly Though things like this make me sick In a case like this I'll get away with it Aaa Ooh ohh ...

Our life is not always about ourselves... Sometimes we need to take a backseat and see other lives advance. For us to bask in the joy of an accomplishment or breakthrough, in the gloom of a pain or woe... to learn or impart lifelong lessons... That we may strive not be indifferent or unknowing for we are all a part of each other in the growth and downfall... We have to feel... We need to embrace that which has made us unique... For we have something that runs through our veins, giving us warmth and life. We are not supposed to be cold and unresponsive... We have the capability to reach out, create, initiate and give and also to receive and become enriched... What I am to you... is what you are to me... and perhaps you mean more a lot to me than what I am to myself...

Most of the time, we just sit in waiting. We are doing nothing. We preoccupy ourselves with mundane things, focusing our energies on paltry undertakings to let time pass us by... When if we are really living, we could have chosen to do worthwhile things that can mark our every day so as not to become lost in some uninteresting paragraph or a dull song... We need to make an effort to steer our lives to a much more moving pathway, a more lively passageway and recording every significant milestone or a profound learning so that we may not grow old in vain... When even if you are tired... by acknowledging your weakness... you see yourself from the future... you acknowledge that time and that day that you were alive...

Most of us, go through life pretending… Pretending that we don’t have any special goals or ambitions or desires, when really deep down inside we do really want more. We block ourselves, and we use a word almost like we are in a trance, as if we are  sleepwalking through life, finding ways to cancel out our dreams... a lot of things we want do, a lot of places we would like to go, a lot of things we would like to experience and we just stop at ‘but’… ‘but’ will cause you to hide out behind fear ‘but’ will cause you to come out with all type of excuses that you can validate your in action and not acting on your dream ‘but’ is a dream killer... Most people go through life quietly and safely tiptoeing to an early demise. We have been holding back. We have ideas that we do not act on, things we want to do. We are afraid to take chances. A lot of people say ‘No’ to things that they don’t even know what they are saying ‘No’ to. Don’t allow ‘but’ to keep y...

It has never been easy... Success is thousands of miles under the Earth. You have to dig and claw your way to it. Through the mud, through the rock, the iron ore...  Plunge your bare hands into the molten earth. If you want it bad enough, you will make it happen. Sure it will hurt...It will be the most painful thing you will ever endure....but it will be worth it... For everyone who is successful has two things in common. Stupidity and madness... At some point in their lives they made a stupid crazy leap of faith to reach success. The path is full of thorns and obstacles and you may have to walk on it alone. But if you keep your head up and your eyes on your dream, with each step you make...  It will get closer and closer, and clearer and clearer.  Though it won't be easy.. Never give up...

Look at where you are now and look at where you want to be... Don't look at the distance. Don't look at the time. Don't look at the obstacles. Just make a decision...  And tell yourself... "As I am... I want to be there..." And just as when you have reached your destination, try looking back on your past. For sure, you won't regret that you endured pain... You won't regret facing the hardships that you had met... The only thing that will be bothersome is perhaps the thought that there might have been a slight chance that you have not worked the hardest possible, of not having gone the most strenuous path to the accomplishment of your goal, of not having made the most out of the chances that life has offered you... In the current now, take your best chance, strive for greatness and pursue your dreams unconditionally. You might not end up as a hero, but you will end up as someone who can look at the mirror and be content... For g...

a heart is like a mirror... a tiny ray of light is able to cause a substantial change.  even if the heart is full of anger and sadness, as the world falls to despair,  a tiny drop of hope and love...  that innocent love... can cause the world to be reborn anew...

The candor of the verdant fields is not as simple like how it portrays itself to be... In its interstices, I could catch a glimpse of the complexities it has hidden from plain view. There always is a battle going on which is concealed from human eyes. Of the tiny critters and weeds, most of us just don't get to see it for we choose not to involve ourselves with things we consider trivial.  For we only look at bigger picture, we fail to actually see the minute struggles of life and death, of survival and demise... where by looking closer we would be able to learn poignant lessons, increasing our familiarity with the world, inculcating truths to raise our chances of survival in this cruel world littered with deceptions and lies...

The light of day is what we always wake up to. Without it, we will forever remain in the shadows of night time. It gives us power... the power to make something out of our lives... But staying underneath it for so long, we come to realize that it gradually becomes unforgiving, that it has the power to scorch and burn... So it has to be said... that something good may not always be good... Sometimes we need to let a cloud cover our sun, so that we can build our roads and bridges... edifices and strongholds.... within our days...

At the edge of a rocky cliff, with the sun as my witness, I spread both my arms so that I could feel the wind pass through me. My gaze is transfixed towards the edge of my field of vision. I could not discern the size or shape of whatever it is that I am looking at. I am trying to cross my own sea... I held out my hand as if I am trying to reach whatever it is that lies beyond me. I could feel its tendrils reaching out for me. Then I took a look at my bare palms. I am struck with what I have seen.  What is written in my palms are crisscrossing lines. Most are distinct. Some obscure... These are actually telling me about life.... the various encounters, the sudden departures, reunions, deadends, breakups, new life... They tell me of my past, the current now and the future that is about to unfold.... For our hands show telltale signs of what we had been through, the state of our prevailing lives and from here on towards eternity, the future lies in our hands....

Youth is the period in which a man can be hopeless. The end of every episode is the end of the world. But the power of hoping through everything, the knowledge that the soul survives its adventures, that great inspiration comes to the middle-aged... ~Gilbert Keith Chesterton

Life is passing like a flower that blooms in the morning and fades away at noon as new buds grow forth to bloom in a new morning... The realities of life the past generation had set in place has been passed on to us and for  those who are next to us will stand as to where we are exactly standing. But life doesn't stop there for we still have to face eternity as a consequence of today, for tomorrow we will all be saying our goodbyes... Live life to the fullest, so that another generation may live...

What has life to offer me when I grow old? What's there to look forward to beyond the biting cold They say it's difficult, yes, stereotypical. What's there beyond sleep, eat, work in this cruel life Ain't there nothin' else 'round here but human strife 'Cause they say it's difficult, yes, stereotypical Gotta be conventional, you can't be so radical. So I sing this song to all of my age For these are the questions we've got to face For in this cycle that we call life We are the ones who are next in line We are next in line. And we gotta work, we gotta feel (we gotta feel) Let's open our eyes and do whatever it takes We gotta work, we gotta feel (we gotta feel) Let's open our eyes, oh-woh And sing this song to all of our age For these are the questions we've got to face For in this cycle that we call life We are the ones who are next in line ~ After Image

When we feel that the world has turned its back on us... When we feel we our strength has deserted us and we are about to breakdown... When we feel we are doomed to fail for we fear the worst is about to unfold... When we feel we are losing ground, and we are slowly sinking ... When we feel life has become too taxing, we are losing the will to live... When we feel that we are on a low and we're lacking the will to fight... When we feel that things are not turning out the way we expect things to be... When we feel defeat before the battle has even started... When we feel that we're hanging by a thread which is about to snap in two... When we feel we are becoming derelict and put in disregard... When we feel our passion is on a downturn, we are losing interest in things... When we feel fear, worry, distrust, vulnerability, indecisiveness and pain... We must remember that we always have a home to turn to... A home which will take away our pain, and c...

True humility is strength... Life may be difficult and it may be full of pain, but it is in how we approach life which matters for the end does justify the means. Do we approach it with fear and pain or with confidence and love? Are we slaves to our desires or do we rise above our feelings for the sake of something we believe and hold dear? Are we humble enough to become selfless? Are we meek enough to abscond exultation and praise to live a sublime existence? Are we ready to lay down our pride and become unnoticed so that we may be extolled in the end?  Perhaps humility is asking too much of ourselves, we fear an adverse outcome...  For in this ever-changing world, when we are not able to keep up, we stall and find ourselves in a decline... But just maybe, if we are confident enough to set aside a part of ourselves, to change some of our views... we may just be able to change our lives for the better and win more hearts...

You are the beauty in my palms... I dare not hurt or toss in the wind... You have captivated this lonely soul... Your simplicity has taken my heart Your delicate presence astounds Your fragility is a humbling grace You light up my life for a moment Your magnificence engulfs my fears You are a breathe of life and love I will take to the depths of my soul...